brokeness.

have you ever read a book and just been so challenged that you can't stop thinking about what you've read? that's where i am. i've been reading this book "when helping hurts" and it has been so very eye-opening and rather humbling. and i didn't even see it coming! my husband and i are participating in our local homeless shelter program again this week and today is our last day hosting. when we finished our week last year, a friend let me borrow this book. i put it off because i thought "what am i really going to learn from this book...this doesn't really apply to me...i'm not hurting the homeless...yada yada ya..." boy was i wrong. this book is not just about the poor in status or money; the author encourages and really challenges you to remember we all have an ultimate need for Christ, the ultimate healer and provider. here are a few quotes that have stood out to me along the way.

"What is the task of the church? We are to embody Jesus Christ by doing what He did and what He continues to do through us: declare--using both words and deeds--that Jesus is the King of kings and Lord of lords who is bringing in a kingdom of righteousness, justice, and peace. And the church needs to do this where Jesus did it, among the blind, the lame, the sick and outcast, and the poor."

this past week has been so challenging and i'm so thankful for this time of character stretching. there is brokeness all around us. we have friends and family that are hurting and in need. i'm so challenged to show compassion--not just when it is convienient for me, or expected. i want this compassion to stem from a need for Christ. this is going to be tough and a long process that will never be perfected here on earth...

i would imagine most people would think the church is where and who should help the needy and broken. this is true in a sense but if i'm viewing myself as thee one that is providing and being a superhero to the poor, then i'm just as bad off. romans says that no good deed is without selfishness. i'm pretty sure i will always have this battle over this feeling of "look at me, i did something great and helped someone else less fortunate, now someone please give me my gold star."
keep with me for a minute...i do want to enjoy the gifts and many many blessings given to our family. the one thought that keeps coming back and nagging me is this: i need Christ. to pray and desire this is a daily struggle since i think i'm pretty good at running the ali show. {which is so wrong} all this talk to say how i've been challenged to serve our community with a humble spirit and a heart that rests on God's promises.

some heavy stuff today but just wanted to share my heart and keep it real.
xoxo

5 comments:

  1. this is so much of what my husband and I have been wrestling with. I will definitely need to check out this book. Thanks for sharing your thoughts!

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  2. I haven't read this book, but I think I've heard of it? Definitely sounds like a good read. About 3 years ago I made the uncomfortable discovery that I was incredibly arrogant, snotty, and unwilling to serve (even though, I thought I was none of those things). Self discovery was half the battle :). I trust that I'm on the right path now, serving and loving as Christ would, although, still with a long, long ways to go and definitely short of perfect ...

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  3. Beautifully said - I will have to look into this book as well. I read boundries last year, and this book made me think about it for months (still do). It might be another great read for you!! XO

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  4. What a great post! Happy weekend!

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  5. beautiful post kitty kat. you are such a loving and caring soul. you should be proud of all of your accomplishments and also proud for how humble you still are. you are one great friend to look up to!

    coco

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